Cheery - I understand where your coming from. I've never been extrovert. When I finished forestry college years ago, there were no jobs to be had, so I went self employed doing tree surgery, gardening and landscaping. I found it very hard meeting customers and discussing prices for jobs. However, when I was just chatting to them, giving advice about a tree etc, I felt more confident.
I find I am much more confident whent speaking about something I have a passion for. In my case it's trees and woodland (and VW campers of course
). I could probably bore for England.
After my shoulder self destructed, I found myself working in an office. I am now stuck in a job as an insurance broker and I feel the same insecurities pushing to the surface again.
I've been doing it for over 10 years, but find it much more difficult to discuss insurance and get people to pay their premiums - it's not a subject I have any love for - it just pays the bills.
I'm with Mad on this one. Find something you enjoy doing and join a club to meet more people and boost your confidence. By the way, you really don't come across as 'socially awkward' in your you tube videos.