I feel very apprehesive... kind of ... alot... kind of.
About two weeks ago I had a gig way over on the northside of the city. A megamall that BLAH charges for your parking if you are there for more than 3 hours. Its so big it takes half an hour to park after you get your ticket and the same to get back to your car; and my jobs are never less than three hours anyway. You have to drive down the Gateway Express; a horrible toll freeway that comes to a grinding gridlock halt if someone so much as spits out their window, and I rarely do it. Two of my clients are there and they will use only me... but I try to beg off the jobs if I can and end up doing them out of loyalty. Both managers are brilliant anyway and give me amazing sales when I do their stores.
So I did the job. Amazing sale. The manager is a lady I have known over the years at other stores and she is just wonderful. I like her professionalism (and shes lovely to boot). She has approached me before about working for her but I sort of fobbed it off as just - toooooo - far. She asked me again after the job; though really seriously this time.
Its been really
tough financially for me since January as the government has changed the sole parents rules and payments. Sheesh, even the UN has written to the Australian government telling them its not good enough. Its not just the cut payments; I DO work... but for every dollar you earn "gross" they take Y... NOW they take ALOT more...and you can actually
get LESS to live on if you work after you have paid taxes and expenses. The only way around it is to work full time and its not possible with Hayden. Thats what changed for me too. She turned 13 and under gov rules she is not eligible for child care nor do centers take that age after school. Luckily I have found a teen child care for her holidays on the days I work. We have one of the worst care records for anyone with disabilites in the western world.
ANYWAY.... I took a few days to consider it. The job. Its four hours a day, five days a week. Perfect. EXACTLY what I have been searching for. And totally within the minimum hours required by the government for a sole parents. I have looking everywhere for a permanent part time job to meet the regs but everyone wants you to work every Saturday and every Thursday late night trading hours (impossible for me with Hayden).......... But to DO that four hours a day I have to travel 2 hours there and 2 hours back!!!!! Ridiculous.
So I went out today to tell her it wasnt possible.... but yanno.... shes a brilliant manager, she knows I can sell, I know the product, I am 90% trained up on the systems..... I was VERY upfront with her. I have never in my life gone into a job without full commitment and certainly never gone in with a "I dont know if this is going to suit me" attitude. I am usually a problem solver and dont often see problems in a business environment that cant be solved. But she is excited about me working with her team and says I can try it... if it is impossible then okay.
Sooooo.. I have this new job. Start on Monday.
Ridiculous. Spending as much time as in a full time job with travel to get paid for four hours! Travelling the Gateway! AND I need to see all the sums.... but I DO believe I will be PAYING to go to work when money is SO short already! I am going to be exhausted not just from work but from travel.
And yet on another level I am excited about working with her, the job requires all the skill sets I have with security, stock control and professionalism, (its a flagship store) I can do it well and its not rocket science. Just the ability to read people and deliver.
She is interested in advancing me.... but I cant see that happening as that requires endless hours and availability to the job and I just wont have that with Haydens needs. Unlike other kids, as she grows older, in some ways I teach her independance (its actually my biggest push for her) but in so many other ways she becomes more dependant than a regular kid for safety reasons)
Just keep swimming... just keep swimming.. just keep swimming....