Having a few ups and downs today: finally got some visitors which made me a lot more positive, but also went to the clinic for a check up. Also, they had to start pushing my jaw forward.
Didn't mention this in the post before, I realized. With this surgery they put a contraption in my mouth that connects to the jaw and brings the jaw forward a bit every day. So, morning and evening I have to turn two wheels in my mouth that make the bone inch forward a millimeter daily. It's called "distraction osteogenesis" and hurts like hell. Well, I'll just have to bare it. This is gonna go on for half a year. Not happy about it, but after all the wonderful support I got from you, the talk I had with my mum and the fact that my friends have finally visited, I feel like I'm up for that now. Really, thank you all again. You've helped me so much just with your wonderful supportive comments.
It's just great that we have a community here that cares for each other.