Last night we threw my soon-to-be 4 year old son a party. We hired a big hall and invited everyone in his Nursery, only one person didn't come - and all the parents were there too. My partner did most of the planning because I am useless at that kind of thing. The party went amazingly well, all the kids had fun and the parents thanked us many times. My son had an brilliant time and got lots of presents.
Now I have lived with some truly destructive social phobia which got worse when I got ill, I couldn't talk to new people and people of an authoritative nature made me feel insanely inferior. The past few months I have been working really hard at boosting my confidence, I have stuck to a healthy diet and taken nootropics (legal cognitive enhancers). After all the hard work, yesterday I was the most confident one there, it has really paid off - I believe I have truly beaten such a crippling, nasty affliction. I dressed up as a pirate; with a beard, an eye patch and a bandana (no parrot unfortunately) and scared the life out of all the kids. I had to individually comfort them to assure them that I was a "nice" pirate lol.
A few months ago, I would've either stayed at home and let my partner deal with it, or hid away from everyone. This time however, I entertained all the kids going around checking they were all okay - making sure nobody was left out. I served drinks to all the adults and spoke to them with no signs of embarrassment (I normally shake and go bright red whenever I talk to someone I hardly know). I was going deep into conversation with so many people who would normally make me feel like crap.
For me, this is a huge achievement and today I am buzzing with life. The best part is, my son got a fantastic party and everyone enjoyed it.