Oh Tina. (((((((((A million billion hugs)))))))))
Lets get something settled first.... you are NOT old ! Old is like 90 something... I may concede to 80 something !
You have been through a mountain of pain and mucking around lately and that is so very wearing and it can beat you down.
If THEY thought you were finished they wouldnt be wasting the pills and such like on you for a start!
You are right... it most probably IS due to your pills being late or a multitude of others very valid reasons that you are SO down. Did anyone tell you that about three days after surgery you can hit a VERY depressed stage? Its not unusual. I have seen it with my sisters, my mum, my dad. Even surgery that went well and left little pain. Honey hang in please.
Promise me please that if you are still in this black place when you log off you will call someone. A good friend who can come over or give you hugs down the phone line? A telephone helpline? Please. Or call your doctor or the hospital to talk to someone and be honest how you are feeling. Is there anyone there with you who can give you a gentle hug and a hot cup of tea? (Scientific fact it fixes most things).
I know you have alot in front of you but it WILL get better I swear.
You have massive huge hugs and all my love flying straight across the big pond right now Tina.
Just keep swimming... just keep swimming.. just keep swimming....