Thank you janet, Sharlene, Morty and everyone. I'm glad we saw everything through and the only reason I was able to stand up for 5 mins is mostly because of the support I've had from all my friends on or offline. That and the knowledge that dad couldn't stand any falseness for the last occasion he'd be with us in body at least. His spirit is actually still with mum in in the bungalow as she can see his skill and presence all around her with his carvings and paintings - there isn't a square foot in there that he hasn't adorned or twiddled with to make it work 'properly'! :lol
Oh - and the other reason I was able to be 'brave'.
I had my new reading glasses on so I couldn't see a bloody thing except my piece of paper once I'd put them on.
I got blotto once I finally got back home though as nearly everything except the funeral was jinxed for me that rest of the day